*awkward silence*

My long lost sister contacted me via Facebook.

Long lost sister you may ask?? I'll elaborate.

Before my father met my mother, he was previously married and had a daughter, my step sister. We've never had much of a relationship, actually we've never had one period. She is only 6 years older than me and though she has wanted to contact me for a while for various reasons we were never able to get a hold of each other, 'til today. Turns out that through my dad's wife i found her facebook (FB) page and requested her. She immediately IMs me on FB and we start to talk. If this would have been a phone conversation there would have been many awkward silent moments, but luckily it wasn't so one can get away with the occasional LOLs and emoticons.

She wanted to know everything about me. I felt weird. I felt awkward. I felt like I was talking to a complete stranger with whom I had nothing in common. I am still digesting it. This is a girl who I think took my dad's side for many things when she should have stood up for herself, but I am no one to judge, nor comment on it. Everyone is there own person and therefore I can not allow my perception of her as my step sister to change because of that, but it is very difficult. I myself get asked all the time how I even still talk to my dad after our history...one could judge me for that and opinionate, but who are they to do so...no one. He is my dad, and equally hers as well so.

She wants to stay in continuous contact with me now.

I don't know how to respond to that, but I said i was very happy to hear from her, which deep down I was because at the end of the day it is a part of my life I didn't have, and now I have this opportunity so why not take it, right?

Day by day - i'll take it day by day.