Out of Sight - Out of Mind

This saying is so false !!! FALSE FALSE FALSE !!!

My ex has been out of sight for about 4 months or so. give or take a little.

And he definitely is not out of mind. At any given moment he will pop into my head, whether it's because i'm watching something, doing something, finding out something new about something, whatever, doesnt matter, he'll pop in. I was very close to going back to Miami to be with him after having moved here and I didnt. I convinced myself I had made the right decision ... that it was the right thing to do, for MYSELF. I focused on my job, on school on getting my future right for me...and i dont regret it for that reason at all, i have been able to get my feet planted, my perspective of things have changed a lot. I used to be much more black and white about stuff, and for a while there i was a little wishy-washy. And now i've resumed my original self again, and I feel great. The original self that he first fell in love with, and maybe it's for that reason that he pops into mind so much.

I'm sure he's off frolicking around and definitely not having me pop into his head. the last contact i had with him was horrible. He emailed something so rude and i wrote back a big FUCK YOU and blocked him from EVERYWHERE !!!


What was chaotic, intense, borderline crazy was misinterpreted for passion between us. no doubt we loved eachother very much, but i think it was a misunderstanding of what love is or should be. Maybe I'm wrong, i dont know, but i think about it alot, everything that happened and that we said and did ... it was a major relationship in my life which ill always remember, inevitable, and from which i learned a lot, both from the relationship and from him.