Ok so last night I was talking to Mr. WontMakeAMove.
We were on the phone for about an hour (which was great because I was able to talk to him, but let me add that I am NOT a phone person at all. I do not master the art of phone conversation, I'm good at the face-to-face convo's)
Anywho ... at some point I "kinda" let my guard down, since my brother says that I have no idea how to BE vulnerable and am too rough, due to many things in my life I am this one, because it became more apparent after my last relationship which made me toughen up my defense wall even more, I said to the Mr., "I'm really happy you called," and immediately regretted saying it. I know, i know. It doesn't seem like a big deal...to YOU! but to me it is. You have no idea how thick and wide my wall is...but he dittoed, and said he was really happy he had called as well, then there was that awkward silence which i figured ruined it cuz it was...well...awkward. But then he broke the silence by laughing and saying, "gee, i'm kinda' happy right now"
I didn't know how to respond to this, since I "dont know how to be vulnerable and just let go of myself", so i did that retarded giggle that girls do. UGH !! how stupid...anywho he giggles too. Eventually we hung up and I thought that was nice, for the first time he communicated something, as stupid as it sounds, that is along the lines of us showing in some way that we are happy to talk to eachother it and enjoy it. But of course an hour later I was over analyzing it, as I do with everything and concluded in my mind that that is not what it meant, and that I think he is still not interested.
why am i so confusing??? i have no idea. If you find out, please let me know.
7 comments:
Relax and give the man a break, you're more normal than you think. After all, you're just starting to get the Miami out of your system while he's behaving totally normal (I'm guessing he's your regular american white young boring-for-latin-standards guy?. Hey, maybe he's still a virgin haha...). In any case, what do you mean by "making a move"? I take it you DO like him, right? otherwise you wouldn't be writing any of this...just think about this...
Do you want him to go straight to 3rd (s-e-x), or do you want a real relationship first? maybe you want him just to fill a need (read: physical need)? make that clear in your mind (first remove all miami preconceptions from your system) and if you're lucky, the rest will fall into place. You'll never be sure of what's going to happen in the future, but at least you still have plenty of time in your life.
I definitely agree. for starters he is definitely not boring. and when i say make a move i dont mean to 3rd base, thats for sure...i know i dont want that nor do i need that "rush" in my life right now, by not making a move i mean simply just being honest on whether he likes me or now you know. I am taking it day by day, i am interested though. It's been hard for me to let my heart move on from the past for various reasons, which is why i dont want him to rush, but id like to know where i stand AT LEAST you know. Either way, i'm enjoying the company and the moments.
I wish i knew who was giving me this good advice, but you are anonymous, and im sure you want to keep it that way...hopefully not but...
Mira T, after all you've said about him it is obvious that he likes you. In which way? only he knows (well maybe not...), but what's the rush? just let things be for now and enjoy the attention, the company and the moment. Right now you have the time and U for sure deserve it, right?.
Is this good advice? only time will tell...meanwhile, I'll have another beer...
it is good advice, thanks. and hopefully at some point i can figure out who you are ha ha ha
i just realized no one calls me T but maybe one or even 2 people.
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