There are so many things that are completely pointless in life. There are so many people that are not worth having around or investing time in. There are things not worth getting into.

What sucks is that you actually have to experience the above first in order to realize there lack of value and worth in your life. But at least if your smart, you'll only have to experience it once. But, if you're like me, hard-headed, then you will experience it a couple of times and eventually will get it right.

What is it that makes one happy? Hopefully your answer isn't anything related to material things. Material things are always temporary, they're never guaranteed and should not determine your level of joy.

The dumbest things make me happy.

Recently I experienced a couple of things that have made me think back on things in my life I have taken for granted, as has probably happened to all of us i'm sure. I started to remember specific moments that I perhaps reacted in a certain way towards someone, or simply ignored a gesture made by someone else, and realized what a shitty thing it was. Once that point gets to you, you can not change it, you can not take it back. The damage is done. The hurt was brought upon. The negative memory linked to your name and person is forever entangled with experiences you can not change. This frustration is now there permanently.

All you can do is not repeat the same mistake the next time. But you wish you hadn't the first time. This lack of control over a situation is infuriating. You want to grab that experience, that moment, that memory and yell at it. Tell it that wasn't you, that wasn't your intention, you know better. You want to tell it you were confused, hurt, withdrawn, depressed, lost, lacking experience in how to deal with certain emotions you had never felt before.

But you can't. So, now you must just continue your life, move on, and forget. Or try to forget. Forgive yourself and others so as to not carry that burden in your soul.